There was a lot I wrote last year that I was unable to publish, as my webhosts seemed to ban my ip address from their sites, which included my own! Now that it seems to be resolved, I suppose this is a good time to start afresh.
So where am I?
I currently have a life which I cannot fit into the hours in a day. Everything is always a trade-off; something is always being sacrificed.
Working long hours is not a new thing for me, but what has changed is that I now have other things in my life, too. I want to go to the gym every day (but only get to go about two times per week at the moment), play football and tennis several times per week (which I never get to do at all now), and it would be nice if seeing my boyfriend in the evenings consisted of more than lying lifelessly on his bed. Sometimes I even dread going to see him (although I am always glad once I get there), because it feels like yet another obligation I don’t have time for; I know that by the time I come home, it will be midnight and I will be straight into bed, and that’ll be it – another day over, another day lost.
I don’t know how to fix it right now. We were supposed to be implementing a shift system at work this week, which would have been a start. It would have given me two ‘gym days’ as I would either be starting really early and finishing early (6am – 4pm), or starting late and finishing late (10am – 8pm), giving me time in either the morning or evening to go to the gym. More importantly, it would give me a definite finishing time around which I could plan my life. But, of course, that was all called off today as we’re apparently too short-staffed to make it work this week. That, combined with working 7.30am – 8.15pm with no toilet break let alone lunch break, is pretty demoralising.
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